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Bernard 2004-04-22 T12:40:31Z

Ganda mo talaga!!! :) former LC of the prestiged Sigma Alpha Nu Sorority and a certified CHICK!!! Galing na babae..hanga talaga ako..not that close anymore but im just here for her..trj

i unearthed this testimonial that you posted on my friendster account.

and below is what you wrote in your “about me” part:

i see life as a bit unfair..people tend to judge you..i mask a happy face..made alot of mistakes..lost people i love..some losses are inevitable like my dad and my grand dad..some are from carelessness and wrong choice of actions..i have learned my lesson the hard way..sadly it’s too late..like a veteran of a war i have healed..but the scars are there to remind me of the battle i have lost..life goes on..deep inside i know..i will never love the same way again..

wow.

weekend: i kept on waiting for you to kick me out haha, or for us to have a gut-wrenching screaming match again.. but no. you were actually sweet. you let me eat what i wanted to eat. you actually hugged me. and we cuddled. and you let me watch all the dvds i wanted to watch — you’d even pause from palying mafia wars and warcraft to laugh with me — you were paying attention to the lines.

you were paying attention to me.

and when i was about to leave this morning, you grabbed my forearm and wrapped it around your neck, making me hug your head. while you were - or pretended to be - half-asleep.

i felt your hand cup my cheek by the way. monday morning. i think you thought i was still asleep. but i could feel you looking at me. i thought you were going to play a trick again, like flick my nose or bite it, so i stirred and you removed your hand. i shouldn’t have moved.

that instance.. those few seconds. they show me now that MAYBE, just maybe..if i, if i just stay still…i’ll feel what you’re feeling. and i won’t push or scare you away..i wonder, do you still feel the same way…when you wrote those words - ”ill never love the same way again..” ?

something tells me, this is more than just another crazy rollercoaster of a… fling.

i actually believe there’s something more to this. to US……