one fine sunday afternoon.

i tried to kiss you on the lips when you asked me “sinong mas matangkad satin?” but you tried to make fun of me and didn’t let me kiss you. i got angry and i walked off in a huff, leaving you with Samson.

i kept checking my phone for text messages or missed calls, asking me to come follow you to Chili’s where your family was having lunch. and when there were none, i thought to myself, great, just great, now your mom’s gonna think im a primadonna and hate me.

so i stupidly circled the 3rd floor of powerplant, not taking my eyes off your table, praying i don’t get an ulcer. i wanted to text you ‘look up’ and i’d be there smiling or mouthing S-O-R-R-Y, but my stubborn a-s-s wanted you to make me go to you.

so when i got a “asan ka na ba, bakit ba ayaw mo dito”, i went ahead and bought us tickets to Going the Distance. why not kiss and make up inside a movie house? we did just that, you leaned on me, i leaned on you - no kissing though, as we try to save it for titanic-level cheesy movies. i never got to eat at Chili’s with you, but when i did drop by to say hi during dessert, your adorable family was all smiles.

and after the movie, we went to meet your family again at your uncle’s place. everyone was there — cousins, aunts, uncles, your mom, sisters… and i liked how nobody bothered with me, but acted as if i was always there on Sundays. no awkward moments, just general comfy-ness in the comments thrown at my direction while watching sarah geronimo and john lloyd cruz —> something like “ang jologs ni sarah o! ang gwapo ni john lloyd noh?” (to which i wanted so much to reply ‘mas gwapo po si bernard’)..

and when your cousin icky-boy told me ‘ate, may kamukha kang astista’, and kept on handing me his top for me to re-wind…i felt like crying. because i wanted the kid to like me, and i felt he did. because i wanted him to tell me ‘ate, next sunday ulit ha’… i kept my stupid-giddy-happy thoughts to myself and just savored the sweet, innocent playfulness of icky-boy and your sister angel.

then we went to your other aunt’s place, and their whole family came out to see you, and meet me… i love how you introduced me as your ‘sis and business partner po…and..ano (pause) *big smile*…’ —> no sugar-coated labels, no kiss-ass terms. just what you feel.

i felt that Drew and Justin somehow made you realize some things about our relationship.

i realized a lot of things too.

when we went back to your place to rest, and you were being extra cuddly and extra sweet, all i could think of was how happy i AM to be with you, and to have you in my life.

i don’t care who believes in us, if anybody else does at all. what’s important is that I DO, and yesterday, you made me feel that you do too.